the last jobs that I ever held

As far as I remember

All these jobs that I had before I become who I am

Cleaning the toilets

Working at super market

Driving Uber

Dry cleaning delivery service

Pizza delivery

Grocery store warehouse

looking back, I still wonder how the heck I end up here with no experience or money

well, the answer is very simple

HARDK WORK MOTHER FUCKERS

THAT'S MY SECRET

I BLEED TO REACH THIS POINT

GO AHEAD AND CHASE ME

I'M HERE WAITING FOR YOU AT THE TOP

Success is my own worst enemy

I don't want fucking money

I don't want to win

I don't want to stop

I hate seeing success

that's means it's the end of the journey and I don't want to stop

that's why I hate success and ignore how much is in my bank

I never wanted money and I never chased money

money is chasing me like crazy and I'm just running away from it because I'm afraid to loose my passion and my dreams

I'm only alive to achieve, that's what makes me feel alive, my purpose, the chase, the struggle. that's makes me very happy

I don't want money, I want to keep going after my goals, it's much more interesting and it gives me meaning of life

man, I want to feel fullfilled, money ain't doing this shit 

why I started this blog

I started this blog to document my journey, my life, to people who wants to get inspired

for myself when I get older

blogging is amazing, I vomit all my shit here so I can get back to it in the future

Thanks for visiting

Adnan

11/11/2020

Shenzhen

Close your eyes and do it

When I was young my mom used to tell me:

"Adnan, men are meant to go out and hunt but often times they face a scary situation so whenever you feel scared of doing something just close your eyes and do it"

I never understood my mom but when I grow up as a man I finally understand it. 

"Close your eyes and do it"

Tough environment is good

I grew up in Middle East

It's Insanely tough culture and environment

When I came to Australia as an immigrant it was like a heaven for me.

I couldn't believe that I was getting paid $20 per hour just for cleaning the toilets

That salary in Australia was double what I used to get paid in my original country for a nice office job.

But that was the tip of iceberg

I was so naive and idiot because actually people in Australia get paid 5x than this money but as I came from a poor country and poor family, I saw this $20 as too much.

Eventually I realized that I was sitting at the bottom of the barrel

And that was like a wake up call for me to start thinking what should I do to climb the ladder from the bottom

You see, tough environment can create a monster or it can beat you.

Please don't copy

Don't copy someone else
Copying is stupid dump shit
Believe me it's not worth it long-term

You might make money now but the market will punish you for it because you took the easiest path that 99% took

Instead do something new and stupid, now that's sucks because it's unproven and only few people did it or tried to do it and failed

It's going to be horrible at first and you will barely make money because you will waste your time trying to figure out how to sell it and unfuck yourself from this crazy new shit you invented.

But what if you win?

騎虎難下

I regret starting my software

It's something that i never thought about

It's a complete accident that I never thought about it after I've been kicked out from the first e-commerce business

I always wondered what if I sold courses teaching people how to do proper e-commerce using my experience during the past 7 years,
as a matter of fact, I gained crazy insights by being in China and dealing with the logistics industry and Taobao sellers

I might make millions of dollars by just selling a course for $997 for 1000 person

That's one million dollars in cash instead of charging stupid $29 a month and writing code at 1 am

Perhaps maybe I'm an introverted guy and don't like attention

I rarely talk

Heck I regret having a YouTube channel and exposing myself

I'm stuck now and there is no way back

But I will continue because I have no choice

As the Chinese saying goes:

騎虎難下

if you ride a tiger, it's hard to get off